:: Some Words Spoken ::

:: Friday, November 22, 2002 ::

today i went to the printers to see the inside proofs (everything perfectly in order), and the colour cover proof (bit of colour shifting, but fixable and all is well). it will be on press next week, and in our hands the week after.
the whole idea is still very surreal and hazy around the edges. boxes full of our books piled up in the hallway. yikes.

-cyn
:: 12:40 PM [+] ::
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i wasn't "on your case", just mentioned that it was your turn. *grin*

last night at Syntactic Sunday, everyone was super excited about the book. the pre-launch will be at the Dec. 8th Syntactic, full details to be posted when the new site launches here in a few days.

it's weird to me how everyone in our circle of friends and poets seems nearly as excited about Some Words Spoken as we are. we are very lucky to have such great people around us. but it's also sort of unnerving in a way. or maybe i'm just stressed out. everything is just motoring along, so much so fast. and it's only going to increase next month.
i'm going to buckle my seatbelt, and just hang on for the ride.

-cyn
:: 9:46 AM [+] ::
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Cyn's been getting on my case... she says I don't blog here enough and she's right. I admit it, I've been slacking in the blogging department. I am going to blame that once again on the fact that real life keeps sneaking in and disturbing the calm. I have discovered that sometimes in moments like this, moments that after 10 years of being a dream should be some of the happiest, can inturn be quite oppositely so, especially when tangled up in other less glamorous parts of a life. Life is more than the book and the completion of this book, although quite a milestone, is not the entire sum of my world. I have been introspective more than verbal these last two weeks.

That said, I am starting to re-emerge from that thoughtful place and my enthusiam about what all this is and means is starting to return. Since the thing went to print - and trust me I am so happy I don't have to look at it and edit it anymore. Staring at one's own words since June can slowly drive one crazy. Even now I find myself second-guessing my selections, even though they balance Cyn's funny, biting, pop culture poems almost perfectly, I am unsure of my decision to leave my own sharp, bitter, bitchy words almost entirely out of this collection. I feel like I might not be giving an accurate representation of myself as a writer / performer with what I have chosen to highlight here. Everyone says, "no worries, monica, save it for the next book" but I guess I am just worried about making a book-sized mistake. *sigh* Too late, the thing is at press as we speak.

Since it went to print, I have started reading other people's words again. I have finished two books in less a week. I have been scouting retail opportunites: Chapters, Barnes & Noble, Amazon.ca. I have been making connections and looking at booking a mini-tour or at least several shows to promote this. Keeping busy is still the best way to keep the insecurities out.

I think this thinking I made a mistake thing is far scarier than the actual putting together of the book was.

Am I really this insecure or is it just PMS?

monica.


:: 7:56 AM [+] ::
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the latest scoop: the book is in the hands of the printers now.
it shall be in our hands around December third.

pardon us while we freak out from excitement and terror!!!

-cyn
:: 10:48 AM [+] ::
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